This year has been incredibly wonderful to say the least. Prosperous, even, as my Auntie C had put it in the a holiday card. This year has been filled with many stresses, but enjoyable still. So many moving parts with our lives. So many significant events in 2017… (maybe one day I’ll tell you) and tons of hosting large parties this year. I enjoy the planning process and putting everything together in the background, and it has been such a joy to share my visions with others. Although I wouldn’t say it’s pay-me event planner status, I’ve been pretty impressed with my developing amateur skills. Hopefully with each passing party, it will get more focused and fluent. Less sweaty, hopefully, at the very least. More pictures, definitely.
As I look forward to the coming year, I am filled with excitement and anticipation for what is to come. Although most of the advice throughout my life has been variances of “be careful” and “you don’t know what you’re getting into”, I realized that life is really taken one step at a time, one minute at a time, one breath at a time. So far, it’s been much easier this way, less worrying about what I cannot control. I would say 2017 was mostly spent learning to let go. Still definitely a work in progress, I am only human, but it has been helping to be in my current state, to feel helpless, to feel frustrated at the lack of mobility and restrictions, and also to learn to let go of it, and realize the beautiful (and thoroughly amazing) process that is happening. Sort of like driving a Prius and sitting in traffic.
Some part of me is somewhat skeptical. I keep running through my mind that maybe my wishes won’t come true in the end, but I think about the journey that I’ve embarked on, and all the people that have come into my life to stay now, and I know it won’t be for naught. This year has taught me about how much community I have, how much loving family, and how not alone I am. There will always be people to celebrate with you, to laugh with you, to cry with you, and mostly, to love you. So although this “era” was short and sweet this year, it was a full year to fully enjoy and relish in all the good things that have happened, and this year I’ve never felt more loved.
If your year didn’t go as well, please remember, not everyone’s journey is roses and peaches. Sometimes you have to live for 30 years in darkness before you see the light. And feel it. Truly feel it, no matter what comes. Don’t give up on yourself. And as everyone keeps telling you, it’s true. It’s all in your head. Be grateful for all the wins, no matter how small. Take a moment to breathe every day.
Best of luck.